This isn't it.

I don't want to be at college.

I knew this, off and on, all through high school. I'm a thinker, not an achademic. This isn't for me, was never for me. I don't want to go to class, don't want them to teach me, don't want to learn what's been proscribed. I want them to teach me how to think, dammit, and how to put those thoughts into writing.

It becomes more evident every day that that isn't what college is. Sure, it's better than high school--but not by much.

I don't think, somehow, that I'll be coming back this spring. But I don't want to move back home, either. Really, what I need to do is move out somewhere with a relative, get a job, and then when I can afford it I'll get my own flat or an appartment with a friend.

Maybe I'll get married before that happens.

Any way, I don't want to be here, don't want to be doing this, don't want to be subjecting myself to more school. I won't be, soon enough. I really just don't want it.